Vision of Love

Being born under a household where both parents are from very distant places and you live in a 3rd country sounds exciting and probably is, however what most people forget is that being from different cultures has its pros and cons for example they disagree on how things are done moooost of the time, but to me the biggest pro is the fact that I can see the world in a very different way I'm more openminded if you know what I mean, so when I realized that I liked men I wasn't disturbed or scared I was only worried of how hard it was going to be happy with somebody else. Yes, I am still in the closet, well sort of, some people know and I have used some dating sites (which in the end they just become games since people there only want to "hook up") but I was never scared for them to see my facepic in the end people steal ids so worse comes to worst I can always say it wasn't me; my word against theirs. 

I always looked forward to finishing high school. I had a great high school time but I knew university was going to make me feel free; a whole lot more people to meet, new experiences and hopefully meet my "other half", but surprise surprise I did meet a lot of people Im quite sociable and likeable, but I never found that idea, that Vision of love I had for myself, I prayed through the nights  and felt so alone for I had to carry the weight on my own. 

Hello, it's me.

Where should I start? Perhaps at the very beggining of my life. I was born in Honduras, right in the middle of Central America. Lately the country is been known for horrid cases of corruption, poverty and violence, as a matter fact The city I live in was considered in the top 10 most violent cities in the World. I live life, Don't get me wrong, I'm hoping I will have a long one the problem is that for some people I showed up on Earth faulty, whether I had a weak personality growing up or born this way I absolutely have no idea, the thing is that being gay in a third world country is not easy. Honduras has come a long way I reckon, however there's people still with strong opinions towards our sexual preferences and that of course makes it harder for us to "explore" and in my case just meet somebody. Guys, I know it sounds exaggerated but I have the worst gaydar in the universe Geez! I was 21 and I had never had a date, a kiss or let alone somebody I could share how I felt, I still don't. So yes! Consider yourselves introduced to my life and prepare for constant mood swings, quotes full of antonomasia and a lot of Mariah Carey (terrible cliché I know, but that talent is worth it).